Being Me

I have to say, over the last year my life has changed more drastically than ever before... I think. I shifted from a life of "relative comfort," which stemmed from familiarity, not actual comfort, to a life of constant struggle and growing and learning.

It's not easy to "learn" life's lessons, the lessons that can only be taught by pounding a hammer on your head a thousand times.

But through stepping out of my comfort or rather, familiar zone, I have had the rare opportunity to discover something new.... ME!

I think most of us can easily get buried in the day to day stuff, and in a sense lose ourselves. For most I think it takes a real big moment or experience in life to get them to step back and evaluate things, I know that's how it worked for me. But I feel a determination to never lose myself again. And also a determination to also be making me, the best me I can be.

This isn't always easy, in fact somedays I'm just poop tired and want to phone it in. But then I remember my vow to myself. So I continue to rediscover... in order to live... in order to not disappear.

No, I'm no where near perfect, but I sure do like myself better today, than I did yesterday, and the day before that. I can be me, and I like me.

Falling in love

I think falling in love is really neat. I know, silly, but really. I think it's so great when people find a special someone that we want to share a piece of our lives with.

It reminds me of kindergarten. We want to share our pencils and sit by them at lunch. We want to hold their hand during recess as we run around the playground. And there's also show and tell, we want to show them our favorite things, and tell them the stories of our lives.

Love is like kindergarten. I love that idea.

Crush

I wonder if it's appropriate as a grown woman to say, "I have a crush." Because, I do. So I sure hope it's okay for me to say that, well... I've decided it's okay for me to say that.

Do you ever meet someone that makes you feel a little giddy inside? Someone that you just look at and think... "Geez, you're adorable!" Well, I have, and so I have a crush now.