I've been divorced officially for a year today.
That's weird.
A year ago my life was different.
But, yesterday my life was different too.
Some days I wonder when my life will be the same. But really, I don't think that will ever be the case.
The power comes in knowing, and accepting that change will be the only constant.
Because if I know that life will always be changing, then I can always be ready to embrace it.
Today, I embrace the change that happened one year ago. No my life isn't any easier than it was then, in many ways it's harder.
But.
The change is good.
I've grown.
And in another year, my life will be very different than it is today.
So I will ride the wave of change, and I will do my darndest to enjoy that ride.
Because this is a ride no one can get off of, not even death will give you a break.
Feb. '12 will be five years for me. You are right, you can't really count on anything except change. Scary, unpredictable, annoying, beautiful change. I feel like here is where I should say something like, "Don't worry it gets easier," or something. But I'm not going to. I will say that you think about it less as time goes on, but I don't really think it gets easier. Just different. But sometimes different is not such a bad thing. Sometimes, it's even good. That's the point, I think - Even though the past doesn't get easier, it doesn't mean that today can't be good. Happiness is a choice. Choose it. =)
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