Disconnected

...sorry, the number you have dialed is no longer in service...

This is how I feel somedays.

I can't really call out.

And no one can call in.

It's not for the lack of trying, it's just that the service has been temporarily shut off.

Maybe it's due to lack of payment.

What's the cost of reconnection?

Sometimes it's as little as finishing a project. Other times it's as extensive as talking it through, almost to exhaustion. Today, I think it's going to cost a hike, seeing nature, finding wonderment in it's raw beauty. And dropping by a flea market, handling old objects, with rich stories to tell. And also, enjoying the company of a good friend.

I hate feeling disconnected from my life, from myself.

It looks like I need to be better at making timely payments.