"Without you I'd be broken, but I'd rather be broken with you by my side." (Jack Johnson)
Wouldn't it be great to have someone just say that to you? (or sing it, that'd be fine too)
My mind has been racing a lot lately, thinking about so many things, about life, how it works, relationships, love and loss. (so I will apologize if this doesn't make sense- *reference the title of the blog)
Thank goodness for therapy, and for good friends- I've been able to pull a lot of it out of my brain and sort it out and now whatever is left, I'll sort out here.
Some of the conclusions that I have come to in my mind wandering may not work in a world like the one we inhabit. But just for the heck of it, let's just throw these ideas out there, and see what sticks.
1. I think people are incredibly dumb...and by dumb, I mean stupid (I include myself in this). By stupid, what I mean is, people get in the way of their OWN happiness! And why?! It's ridiculous!
2. People need people. - This is simple, yet complicated. People need a "their person." People need a somebody to call their own. And while people should learn to be capable human beings (on their own), at the end of the day, or in the thick of all the crap, people need to know they have someone there to back them up. Everyone needs someone who is willing to (and does) fight for them.
3. The game- (*reference blog title again) there is thing some people call the dating game. However, game implies fun...where is the fun in this savage sport of lies and trickery? I do not find it fun. (and maybe that's because I'm just exhausted right now) The other thing, in a game, there is a winner and a loser, so if it's a two person game...someone will always lose, and frankly I don't like those odds. I'd much rather play six hours of the board game risk, than go on six first dates. Risk requires a lot less strategy and skill.
4. I'll make this my last up chuck for today...this is related to the game. Why can't we live in a world where we can just be completely straight forward with each other. For example: you meet someone you like, they like you, so you tell each other, and then you be together. I just think, when it comes to love (or whatever kids are calling it these days) it's black and white. If you "love" someone, you love them, and you let everything else go. Obstacles are nothing if you've really got love. (*reference number 1) And here's the other thing, I think it's okay to admit you're scared, in fact I think it'd make things run so much smoother if people just said, "hey, I like you, I want to be with you, but I'm scared as hell. Help me not be afraid? Catch me, be my safety net." --- That's what we mean a lot of the time, but it's never what we say. It's my goal to get to the point where I can say that.
And my hope is that by saying that, I won't get in the way of my own happiness, and I will be with "my person," not playing "the game," curled up on the couch in each other's arms listening to Jack Johnson sing about how we feel, about how even if we were broken, everything would be better with our person by our side.
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