Forsaking

Forsaking: the act of giving something up.

Learning to give something (anything) up can be an excruciating and arduous task.

I have come to the realization, however, the only way to move forward in anything, is by letting go.

Letting go will set you free.

It sounds nice doesn't it? Sounds like something that should be needle pointed on a pillow or put up on one of those cutesy wall placards.

It's easier said than done.

Forsaking, abandoning, deserting those things that we love is not an easy thing. Deciding what you will be forsaking always involves great risk, and often heartache.

However, just because you are forsaking something, and it's not easy, does not mean it won't be worth it in the end. Too often we second guess ourselves, and we just can't. We can (and should), however, allow ourselves time to mourn the loss of that thing we loved and are now parting with.

If we hold onto everything (good or bad) and never let go of anything, we begin to block ourselves off, we lose the space, the capacity to love new things, to take new things in, to move forward.

That is not to say we let go of everything, but we let go of things that hurt us, hold us back and keep us from happiness. For everyone, those things are different.

I once had the dream of the perfect family life. That is a dream (in the traditional sense) that I have had to let go.

I remember the day I realized this, I cried.

It was hard to give up this dream (a dream I loved, a dream I held close to my heart), but I knew that if I didn't let go of this dream, that it would hinder my ability to form a new dream.

Now that my new dream has been created, I am forced to assess the other parts of my life, and how they will either propel that dream forward, or kill it.

And then I must begin forsaking.

So if I seen glum at times, be patient with me, I am mourning the loss of old loves and dreams, in hopes of experiencing greater love and achieving my biggest dream.